Thursday, October 11, 2012

The Journey


The journey is marked by victories and failures
It is the sweetest victory I have ever known
The failures . . . the most heart wrenching

I am tempted to stop
To despair at my failures
To wish I could start again
Knowing then what I know now

Why is there no “practice child” in this journey of life?
No way to learn without failure
No way to succeed without dying to myself
I stop in my rush and impatient pride
And actually listen to what I sound like

I cringe

I’d never talk to anyone else that way
Why my kids?
Because they are children and will take it?
They won’t tell anyone and it won’t affect my reputation

What soul sickness!
I hate the facts
The facts of sin in my life

 
And so tomorrow will begin as today has begun
My flesh will want more
More “shut eye” time
More “me” time

But my spirit knows better
I know that the best way to live is to die
To die to “me” and live for those around me

And so I begin again
With a prayer for help. Wisdom. Emotional energy.

A desire that my children will see and understand who God is

A desire that my children will want my Savior because life with Mama is good and it’s good because of Jesus and His Word.
 
 
Eternity will tell.  

These precious souls hang in the balance.
 
Lord, help me to die.

 
 
 
 
Photos from our family beach trip last month. Such good times!
 
 
 






















3 comments:

Karen said...

We had such a nice time with your family at the beach. Thanks for wanting to be with us and share your lives with us. As for dying to yourself, take one day at a time or better yet one moment at a time. You ARE doing well with your children and you DO represent the Savior to them in a very beautiful way. Keep on keeping on. These days will soon be gone and you may find yourself longing for them again.

Unknown said...

Carry on to be a source of inspiration to others.
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Keri said...

wonderful pictures!