The Power of Weakness

Unlikely. Unexpected. A spirit of doubt.

This characterized my heart before as I attended this Bible Conference. I was struggling to yield and accept yet more change. I wrestled in my spirit with constant tension. Did I not just become victorious over this? This very fact caused great doubt in my mind. Perhaps I would never overcome my stubborn will.

The speaker's text was from the book of Song of Solomon. Strange - indeed. I doodled with my notes for a while but towards the end of the sermon I began to engage my heart in what he spoke. It was as if he could read my mind and speak rebuke straight to my heart. The final hymn began and I began to sing of surrender. Why?? Why sing of something that my heart denied!

I tossed the hymnal on my seat and hurried to somewhere where I could pray. Seated in a room I bowed my head to pray - there were several others around me doing the same. The truth of God's Word chocked out my words. I failed to pray. I buried my head in my hands wept silently. Jesus Christ had suffered for me. He had denied His will to follow the Father's plan. He had accepted the change. He had humbled Himself for whatever God would call Him to. What a high opinion I had of myself to protest His command for one moment of my life.

I walked in the sun afterwards. I saw His beauty in creation. I was convicted by the moment regarding my words, thoughts, and motives.

Surrender. Joy. Love. Selfless living. These truths define the life that God has called me to live. It never grows old.