I have the most thoughtful and loving brother that any girl could ask for. On my birthday, he arranged to have flowers delivered to me. All neatly in a vase, with a birthday card attached; it was perfect. I did not need to open the card to see who it was from. As soon as I saw it, I started crying.
I just stood in the kitchen staring at them. I was completely humbled that the Lord had allowed me to have such an incredible person for a brother. I was humbled even further as I considered how the Lord had led him to go to South Carolina. Sure, it has caused me "pain" in a sense and I miss him more than I can even express. Yet, if he had never gone away I doubt that I could have reached the level of faith that I have been forced to obtain. Further, I would have never realized what a blessing my brother is to me. I still don't fully understand why the Lord chose to take my best friend across the country. But in the midst of pain there is such joy.
That question that I asked myself when I first learned that Chris was going to Bob Jones has recently come back into my thoughts. "Am I enough?" It seems like an invalid question now. In fact, I am almost ashamed that I ever had to ponder it. Is Christ enough? He is my everything. Every other relationship only serves to strength the most important relationship in life - our relationship with God. Is He enough? He has always been and always will be more than I could ever need or desire.
2 comments:
Thats so sweet Allison! I would be so touched if one of my brothers did that for me.
That is such a good observasation. Is Christ enough? If I were to wake up and all my family was taken away from me I don't know how I would react. I causes me to think more on this subject.
Well God searches the Earth for those who's hearts are completely His. If our heart is His then He'll fill us up and provide us with everything and more then we could ever need. So God is enough but he's also a loving heavenly father and designed us to be social creatures. He only gives His children good gifts and some of those are friendships and relationship with other individualizes. It's apparent that your heart is completely His and as His loving child He's given you Chris as a gift but ultimately we're not to become dependent upon our gifts so all gifts must be removed to test the heart to see where it truly is and to strengthen your faith in Him which it sounds like you've done. A congratulations is extended your way for being a girl of faith even in a difficult circumstance.
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