All that I was doing was organizing family photos.
But...the recent ones got to me. Chris' expressions, smile, mannerisms, attitude - I miss everything about him. He has only been gone for 7 days. It feels like an eternity.
Monday night I was driving home from teaching some piano students. The lessons had gone well, I was listening to Victoria Taft (Yeah...she's a hoot but a little talk radio goes a long way). Anyhow! I was just generally happy. I started thinking about what I would do when I got home. First thing on my list for sure...running up the stairs, finding Chris at his desk, giving him a hug, then laying across Jacob's bed and talking about whatever. Where on earth was my brain? When it finally hit me that there would be no Chris at his desk when I got home the familiar pain swept over me.
What I would do right now for one more hug. One more conversation. One more moment working with him. One more ride home from work in his car with the windows rolled down and my hair flying everywhere.
So tonight I spent the hour telling Jacob stories and just talking with him even though it was past his bed time. All of the sudden time with family seems so precious. I have been forced to realize - it will not last for forever.
1 comment:
I know exactly how you feel. Hang in there girl! We are both going to make it! :)
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