pleasures . . .

There is something heavenly about early mornings – there is a strange stillness before the world begins to spin with the mixture of busy lives. I hear God proclaiming His faithfulness to my heart as the sun rises and the crisp morning air seems like a small taste of heaven.


There is something strangely satisfying about putting together a meal that tastes and looks good. Tonight we had a green theme going. I have recently discovered how little details can communicate to people that they are worth something to you . . . they are worth your extra effort and you love them enough to make things perfect for them. I love doing this for my family (and I feel so selfish because I get way more satisfaction out of it than anyone!) . . . I can’t wait to serve the man that God brings me one day.

There is something so wonderful about family that sometimes I wonder if I am living in some sort of dream. Of course, there are times when love hurts and it becomes very real. When I spend time with my little bro, talk to my mom, see my dad working hard, or spend quality time with Chris my thoughts immediately fly heavenward as I speechlessly thank God for blessing me with such fellowship.

There is something unfamiliar about my life to me because, for the first time in the past eight years, I am not over committed or stressed. I still have responsibilities. I still get work done and I do not feel lazy (in fact, I felt more lazy when I was over committed). I have learned so much in the past two months. I feel foolish that it really took me this long to figure these “simple” things out. I can finally say no to people, I finally don’t care if people think that I am not doing enough, I finally can go to bed at a decent time and then get up, work hard, and be productive without running a rat race. I can finally hand God my future and leave the results to Him. Of course, yielding it all still hurts and it’s a day-by-day thing . . .

So those are my scattered thoughts for tonight . . .

~Al