I have not written in over a week.

I have learned more about myself and about my Lord in this past week than, perhaps, in all of last year.

It began on a Monday morning when I was studying a theological book. I slammed it shut. "Why God? Why study when I am unaware of your work in my life? I yield to You again and again. I still do not know what You have for me. Oh God! Show me what You want me to do!!"

He revealed it to me that day and the next. It was the hardest two days that I have walked through in years.

Although when I cried out to Him, I was determined to obey, I declared “no” when He revealed His will to me. It was so far from what I had imagined, so different than what I expected and so humbling that my spirit of pride reared its ugly head.

It was then that He taught me about sacrifice.