Friday, October 07, 2005

Live, laugh and love on...

She hasn't even left yet and I miss her already. How karazi is that? I keep telling myself that I can still talk to her, that she's only moving a couple of hours away and that she'll be back for Thanksgiving sooner than I know. But man, it's still hard because you have to say goodbye. The Lara that will come back during the holidays won't be the same Lara that left. Change is totally inevitable as she takes a step out of her "normal structure" and starts a new part of her life.

Maybe I'm being totally selfish. What am I going to do when I'm falling apart and Lara isn't just right there on IM to reason me back into reality, listen to be vent and give me advice? Poor Chris, he thought that I came to him with problems before! :D


I have this picture of the two of us on my desktop. Last night I was doing Chemistry homework that was just completely frustrating, I had a headache, Chris was working late, I was having some issues with a friend of mine and I had a test the next day that I was freaking out about. Then Chris came home and, through a phone call and various circumstances, accidentally made me look like an idiot to someone that I've been trying to get a job interview with for over a month. I glanced up at the picture of Lara and lost all my common sense. As I was sitting there staring at my Chemistry book and mentally having a fit, I was reminded that, although I'll miss Lara and sometimes life is confusing and overwhelming, God is still my all-sufficient One. When life hurts, I can live, laugh and love on because my relationship with God is my sure foundation. I'm complete; just me and Him.

Well, this morning I passed the test I was all up tight about, my bro is coming home early enough to hang out with me and watch a movie, I got all my Chemistry homework done, I have a three day weekend and I leave for South Carolina on Wednesday. Yeah, a bit of time always makes everything look a tad better. ;)

Have a good weekend, don't forget that He is your all-sufficient One, rejoice in the simple things in life and live for the audience of your Lord.
-Alzers





2 comments:

Kelci Lavelle said...

Alzers, I know what you mean about missing Lara before she is even gone! Well, I guess she is actually gone now but I'm missing her......
Hang in there!

Mel said...

*sigh...*